For Months I Have Been Basically Staying Indoors.
A few weeks was because of the weather but most days it is because all I do is work. I'm almost all of the time building something or writing something. Most days go smooth and I get whatever task I was working on accomplished. Some days there doesn't appear to be any progress when I look back on my work.
Who ever said if you build it they will come was only half right.
We just keep building away over here and are making some excellent progress. I'm tired though from staying up all night and most of the days coding. I stopped to day for about 2 hrs. The wife and I and our 2 boys drove to a nearby park. We had other plans but the weather was so nice I pulled my lets take a no plan day card out of my wallet and used it.
For me I plan almost everything. Methodically calculating every possible outcome of almost everything that I do or say in an instant. Much of this decision making ability is shear gut feeling and intuition. For years I used this strange ability to become one of the leading sales strategists for a large corporation. My abilities for so fine tuned that rarely did I lose a deal. The body language mimicking became second nature.So successful was I that every gesture, thought, feeling, expression, and spoken word had been so fined tuned that no one escaped with out signing a deal. I literally sold 26 deals straight which is unheard of on my 26th birthday. I took off the rest of the month that year and celebrated by playing golf and boating.
One day I just felt off. The first client of the day would throw me for a loop. This client was completely not compelled in any way by my charm and charisma. I knew it had nothing to do with the deal, or the company, or the goods and services, the deal would fall through because of me and my inability to sync up with the customer For the first time I could see the future on this deal not going in my favor. It wasn't competition it was something I had said or done. Think,I said quietly to myself. You can overcome this. But my natural abilities were not there. The natural God given gift to persuade men was gone. Vanished it appears over night.
My inability to sense the slightest fear or hesitation or distrust from my fellow man/woman didn't exist any more. Later on in the day after being lost I had a few awesome deals left in me. The end of the day came and I could tell something wasn't right. I just wasn't myself any more. Someone close to me who had known me for a long time a few days later asked me if I was ok. My response was the typical positive motivator sales guru and I replied, "Never Been Better, Everything Is Perfect In My Life." Then she said, "Are You Sure? Have You Been Drinking." I assured her that I had not been drinking but she insisted that my speech was slurred. That I was stumbling over my words.
For days and weeks I went to doctors and medical specialists. Test after test was performed. Scans of my whole body were made and nothing. There was nothing that anyone could find wrong with me that could cause they symptoms I was having. After a crazy amount of money spent I found myself reading a pamphlet about stress.The last Dr I spoke with thought that due to my position in life that maybe all of the stress had taken it's toll. My mind had become tired of being the way that it was.
I could replay 365 days of my life and beyond like it wasn't anything. At the store people would often be amazed at my ability to remember not only their name but everyone's name that I had met the day we had met. I was able to remember their pets names, kids names, neighbors names, anyone that we met together or anything we discussed was readily available for discussion like 5 years had not past but just a few days.
I could remember the exact direction to get to their house, their address, their phone numbers, their favorite things and sometimes I would store their birthdays in my mind. People that I met mattered to me. Sometimes the conversation at the store would drag on for a while as we discussed topics they found interesting. This was a natural gift to have this type of recall. To lose it was disastrous for me.
My life was planned out, my days metered and managed. Stress was never even a consideration. I enjoyed doing what I was good at and people enjoyed our conversations. I wasn't a by the book normal sales guy. I thought way outside the box and left to my own routine destroyed the competition time and time again. I miss my old life some days.
Being stuck inside for months coding or designing or writing can get lonely. If it were not for my wife and boys I would have very little interaction with the outside world. I'm almost normal now as my regular full time job keeps me busy but has very little stress. My mind is very clear even though I sleep less than 4 hours per day generally.
As I reflect back on the past and where that path would have taken in me had my mind and body been able to handle the stress level, oh the continued riches I would have won. At the park I look over and see my beautiful wife and precious boys smiling and laughing and enjoying life to the fullest. None of this would have been possible had I not become ill. The smile and warmth in my heart was and is worth losing all of my past. Sure we are just normal folks doing normal things but it is very low stress and my days looking forward are brighter than ever.
https://SteemThat.com is growing fast. We are getting more thank yous for helping change people's lives. Many people would have given up on Steemit they said had they not found SteemThat.com. I know we are making a difference. When I look at the stats for January and we us averaging 30 people per day visiting Steemit and many signing up it gives me hope for an even better tomorrow. Even though https://SteemThat.com cannot interact with Steemit. None of our tools are working with wss errors and all of our feeds are down. Maybe this is another sign and perhaps all of the things that have led up to this point are for a reason.
The person who said,"If You build It They Will Come." is correct but in a digital age really only half correct. Today the ladder of digital success can best be measured by this statement by me, "Once It Is Built, Will They Come And Will They Stay?" If we can look around and answer yes then we are on a path to success!
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This is very insightful.
Thanks for sharing
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