Hey there! Sorry to hear about this. Crushing news for you. I see the positive in the 18hours per day for video games, though.
I got made redundant on April the 15th, this year, after 13 years at the one joint. I saw it as an opportunity to grow and give less fucks in the future. I've been applying for a few things, but my zest for any particular role isn't glowing with the bellowing fires of the sun yet.
But, I am looking.
If you want to talk, let me know! Happy to hear you rant further on this topic and hear about how your photography stuff is going (if it is still going!)
Haha, I see the positive in the 18hrs of videogames too! xD
But holy moly!! Being made redundant after 13 years... 😱 I am so sorry. That would be such a shock. I can't even imagine. My 6 months has been put to shame, haha! 😅
Thank you for your offer to talk. :) I've done so much ranting today, I feel a lot better. It just seems like my entire employment was filled with lies.
"We're looking for someone long term."
"We're undergoing new ownership, but don't worry. Your job is safe."
"I'm looking forward to seeing you flourish!! You have so much potential - here you can transform into Belinda the Butterfly!"
Nek minit: bye, Felicia.
Sorry. Still ranting. I'm just really hurt by all of this.
My photography venture has been put on hold for the time being, but not forgotten. I had too grand a hope of being able to do it all in the spare room of my home, naive, unfeasible. I'm finally getting my licence so I can drive to locations and other people's homes instead. It'll be nice to get that rolling again.
It is okay to be hurt. It's a good thing. If we weren't hurt by anything, we wouldn't know what mattered to us. :)
It makes those moments when the hurt is vacant all the more valuable.
With regards to me, I see it as a massive positive. I've thrown myself at the gym, and when I was getting dressed for an interview today, I had a shirt that used to fit.. fit as though it was a hospital gown that was too large.
By the same token, I had the opposite problem with my pants. I couldn't get them over my thighs, let alone my waist! So there's positives that have come about due to my retrenchment.
Ultimately, it has allowed me to assess what is important and to cherish what, (and those) that I have. I've been doing a lot of growing (emotionally) and (shrinking - in some places - physically) - while obtaining wisdom, and dare I say it, I'm the happiest I've ever been.
It is a strange feeling, but I am going to enjoy it while it sticks around.
My view is always one of stoicism and nihilism - if I have no expectations of anything, I can never be disappointed. Maybe that's also Buddhist to some extent?