Do you remember when "ulogs" were a thing here on the blockchain? I'm not sure if they still are, but I'm going to write one anyway.
This is a mourning letter. A post to exhibit my feelings and unleash them upon the world so they're no longer bottled up inside, ready to explode at the worst possible moment as they are wont to do.
I have been made redundant.
After years of searching for employment. After years of failure. After years of suffering with anxiety and forcing myself to come out of it stronger and more confident with the help of medication and therapy. Someone finally liked me enough to give me a chance.
And it was amazing. It was a small family-run business, close-knit, it felt like a little work-family and I felt as though I fit right in. Everyone was so friendly, I was a member of their team, I came up with good ideas to implement, I was creative, I was passionate about their business and I felt incredibly productive in my role for them.
My 6-month probation period comes to an end in about two weeks.
And as a result, my role has been made redundant, just before the probationary period ended.
I feel like they timed it this way to neglect due process were I an official non-probational member of their team, which I would've been in a couple of weeks.
It came out of no where. I felt secure in my role. I felt valued. I felt like I was doing really well, accomplishing so much. Hell, I had just signed a permanent contract.
Yesterday afternoon my manager said to me, "Bye, see you Thursday!"
Not even 24 hours later I get a phonecall, "Sorry. Your role is no longer required. Yesterday was effectively your last day. We wish you well in your future endeavours."
Absolutely out of no where.
I'll be given a week's pay compensation thanks to probationary requirements. Then ta-ta. Farewell. Good riddance.
I feel shocked and saddened. I cried for hours and tears are still threatening to roll down my cheeks.
But I suppose the good to have come out of this is that I have gained more experience for an office role, a marketing role, a social media role, a content creator role; I now have a very recent written reference; and I've now got more material for poor Jenny, the eternally unlucky young lady in one of the many novels I have going in Scrivener.
Now I get to spend 18 hours a day in videogames, Scrivener, and my own depressed little world while searching for yet another business to give me a chance.
Sigh.
Fairwork Australia tells me that I should've received written correspondence multiple times during this period, and especially when it comes to the business suddenly ending my employment with absolutely no warning.
But... I just can't be bothered with this.
I know that I improved their business during my time with them, and now they get to reap the benefits of all the templates and images and website changes and coding and everything I did for them. At least I thought to email myself a snippet of my completed work to use as part of a portfolio.
This has been a real dick move on their part.
But hopefully it's an opening door to something better. :(
Hey there! Sorry to hear about this. Crushing news for you. I see the positive in the 18hours per day for video games, though.
I got made redundant on April the 15th, this year, after 13 years at the one joint. I saw it as an opportunity to grow and give less fucks in the future. I've been applying for a few things, but my zest for any particular role isn't glowing with the bellowing fires of the sun yet.
But, I am looking.
If you want to talk, let me know! Happy to hear you rant further on this topic and hear about how your photography stuff is going (if it is still going!)
Haha, I see the positive in the 18hrs of videogames too! xD
But holy moly!! Being made redundant after 13 years... 😱 I am so sorry. That would be such a shock. I can't even imagine. My 6 months has been put to shame, haha! 😅
Thank you for your offer to talk. :) I've done so much ranting today, I feel a lot better. It just seems like my entire employment was filled with lies.
"We're looking for someone long term."
"We're undergoing new ownership, but don't worry. Your job is safe."
"I'm looking forward to seeing you flourish!! You have so much potential - here you can transform into Belinda the Butterfly!"
Nek minit: bye, Felicia.
Sorry. Still ranting. I'm just really hurt by all of this.
My photography venture has been put on hold for the time being, but not forgotten. I had too grand a hope of being able to do it all in the spare room of my home, naive, unfeasible. I'm finally getting my licence so I can drive to locations and other people's homes instead. It'll be nice to get that rolling again.
It is okay to be hurt. It's a good thing. If we weren't hurt by anything, we wouldn't know what mattered to us. :)
It makes those moments when the hurt is vacant all the more valuable.
With regards to me, I see it as a massive positive. I've thrown myself at the gym, and when I was getting dressed for an interview today, I had a shirt that used to fit.. fit as though it was a hospital gown that was too large.
By the same token, I had the opposite problem with my pants. I couldn't get them over my thighs, let alone my waist! So there's positives that have come about due to my retrenchment.
Ultimately, it has allowed me to assess what is important and to cherish what, (and those) that I have. I've been doing a lot of growing (emotionally) and (shrinking - in some places - physically) - while obtaining wisdom, and dare I say it, I'm the happiest I've ever been.
It is a strange feeling, but I am going to enjoy it while it sticks around.
My view is always one of stoicism and nihilism - if I have no expectations of anything, I can never be disappointed. Maybe that's also Buddhist to some extent?
🙏
I hope opportunities finds you soon.
Thank you. :)
Oh hunny... Big hugs to you. Life is not fair it really isn't. I could feel your emotion in your post. It's okay to feel the way you do it's valid. I will leave this here my name is VixenRayne on discord. Here if you need someone to talk to and vent.
Oh my that must really sting! I'm so sorry!
How on earth has this position become "redundant?" Redundant means someone else has been doing it, doesn't it? In the US, these people would have done a great many things incorrectly, and you would be eligible for unemployment payments. I understand not wanting to be bothered though.
I'm glad to hear Jenny is alive somewhere else in the world. Bring her back here now and then! Is she still with Joey?
Redundancy in this case is basically to mean that the role is no longer required in their business. They no longer need me to do those things for them, as they will be hiring a third party externally to do those tasks.
So, my main purpose was marketing and advertising. New ownership has made changes so that it's no longer required that someone in the office does that, they're outsourcing to a company that focuses on that and paying them a monthly fee instead of someone (me) a weekly wage.
Jenny is very much still alive! Now more than ever with this added misfortune I can feed to her, haha. 😅 Joey is still by her side, tormenting her.
At least some situations never change. I'm so sorry. It sounds like it was a great fit for you. Can you get out there and find that same thing? They'll give you a great reference, no?