I know that. I need a real vacation too. My last few vacations weren't really vacations but just a change of location. Which unfortunately didn't do me any good. We should probably all take a step back and enjoy life a bit more, but it's hard. I know that from myself. You just want to get the most out of your life. All it takes is one small setback to lose all the motivation you had. I hope you have fun in Japan and I'm looking forward to reading your posts about Japan. Many of my friends are also talking a lot about traveling to Japan. Maybe I will be able to have a little say thanks to your posts.