I beg of you oh, mighty God of cards, cut me some slack and deal me a good hand. All I need is the ace of spades. I'm waiting for the royal flush.
My life is, and has been a mess for several months, for various reasons. Even though I've been dealt a good hand occassionally, I'm starting to wonder if I might have used all my tricks. I don't have any more 'aces up my sleeves'. Perhaps I'm too humble and honest to 'bluff', or too ignorant to 'call'. I continue to 'raise' and 'check' even though I know that I eventually have to 'fold'. I've waited for that ace ever since this game began. People told me; 'go fish', and I did. But it looks like I'm not that good of a fisherman. After all, I'm sitting here with one 'pair' in my hands, waiting to be beaten by someone with a better hand. I'm waiting to be thrown under the bus. Again.
Okay, I'm not into poker, but I know that I'm worth more than a lousy hand of cards. I'm not even that good of a writer, so perhaps I couldn't even get you to understand the reference.
Let's give it another shot:
Do you remember Super Mario? - I'm starting to think that I've used all the extra lives I was able to collect, and I'm not even near the final stage and I have yet been able to beat Bowser. However, how much of a chance is there when I'm just a washed up player. I've started to see myself as a has-been, not a will be. It's a scary thought.
To be on the verge of giving up... Especially when you know that you're worth more than what you get. When you're fighting against society, rules, guidelines and the government, you're just a simple nobody. You have no voice. - I have no voice.
It doesn't matter how much I try, because all my efforts are a waste of time. I don't have an impact and I'm not able to bring forth solutions. It's impossible to fight for my case and even the best lawyers in the world would face a loss.
With all this being said, it's no wonder that people give up. They give up, because they feel that they've done everything they can. They went all-in before they caved-in.
I have found that sitting on the back porch with a couple of Guinness Extra Stouts watching the sunset does wonders to improve my outlook on life.
Yeah, it's a nice way to get some new perspective on things. But the reality doesn't disappear no matter how drunk I am. lol
Agreed! Mine's tequila and watching the ocean. It's power makes everything seem infantile.
As a career sales and business guy, you deal with the ups and downs regularly. I always found, for some strange reason, that it was better to think "I wonder where the good news will come from" than "It couldn't get any worse than this." Maybe it is superstition but it always seemed to work.
I think the reality of it was that it was easy to get down and prepare for the next blow to the nose. Changing outlook to searching for the opportunity and the good news has done wonders for me.
So, your good news is just around the corner and it will be bringing friends. ;)
Yeah, I dealt with tons of ups and downs as a salesman and a freelancer too. It's difficult to stay "professional" though, when it affects you on a personal level. I can't help to feel lost and discouraged. In business, it wasn't personal, even though some of my clients might have disliked me, or whatever it might have been. But it was easier to see it as business.
I can't remember if I've told you this before, so I apologize if I'm repeating myself. I see life like like surfing; you ride the wave when things are good, and exciting and we're happy, because you know that inevitably, the wave will crash, but eventually, we also know that another wave will come.
Right now, your wave has crashed, and you're feeling useless and insignificant. Perhaps you can't change the world, but you can change some other more tangible things ... like how you're viewing yourself at the moment. Sorry if that sounds harsh, it's totally not meant that way <3
Did you ever hear the story of the guy who was walking on miles and miles of beach, picking up starfish that had been stranded there when the tide went back out? Along the miles were hundreds and hundreds of stranded starfish. Another man saw this guy and thought, how futile, so he said, "why bother throwing those back in? There's no way you can save all of them." And the guy replied, holding one starfish in his hand, "I can't make a difference for all of them, but I can make a difference for this one."
You have such a good heart @hitmeasap, and such good intentions, so hang in there, your wave will return. It always does. Trust in it.
Sending you a big hug :)
That story is really great, and it explains the whole point of my education and my approach in life in many ways actually. Thank you for sharing that @lynncoyle1, I appreciate it. :)
inspiration, work, and investing for dividends.
Keep at it. I am, after all, an optimist.
-Powman
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I've always been 'all in.' I refused to live half way.
At this point also feeling that my tank is near empty and there are still a full days drive to get out of the desert. My employer and ex-wife are going to have to fight over my remains, although I don't see why anyone would want them --there isn't a pound of flesh to be had.