I have no bloody clue how to put in words the thoughts I think or feelings. Maybe a mixture of both and the thinking is fighting the feeling. Only God knows which is winning.
I think you missed the greatness in the things you wrote. I missed = I found nothing to replace. Not everything needs to be replaced though.
There are many sides to history. In general the victor writes the truth they say. Many a truth has been written down and lost. At times even hidden burnt and the author slain. That is a global truth, not one of your ability to have had a choice in.
But alas.
The individual truth also has more than one side. Not counting the side of anyone of whom interactions might have taken place and bearing solely on the me. Even the truth of a me has many sides. Seeing some of those other sides can lift the spirit.
Ying Yang. I am sure you have heard on Ying Yang or is it Yin Yan. Opposites encircled and the core of each side holds the opposing colour. This is how people are. We are all skitzo. I would like to see the better side of your Skitz.
So, life begins and we live in the white. You could travel all over that white for a lifetime and never see any black.
Though the time you do see the black, it begins to get harder and harder not to see it. Eventually all you can see is the black. That seems to be where you are. (Going by the post).
This brings the hard part. The part of struggle. It is coming out the other side you find what was missed.
To take a phrase from Jordan B Peterson. You have to look deeper into the darkness to see the light.
I do not know you to have any opinion of you personally. If what I write upsets you, you have not read what I wrote. You would have read what you already think. Saying that.
If you ever need to see a different side. Holla. TheHive#4070 on discord or tag me.
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This part of my life came to me with back stabbing friends, a couple of 'filled with hate' parents and some cheating ex-lovers. But I believe that this part of my life is gone. Not all of them but most of them.
Yin Yan is the backbone of the life, in my opinion, and there is no life without it. And I think you cannot see any darknees nor any light without each of them. You have to have both of them so you can say 'This is darkness' or 'This is light'.
It is hard for me to think in English but Jordan B Peterson did say my thoughts in words and translated them.
Even don't think about it, we all have individual thoughts and have a right to say or write. I think I can say this part of my life was 3 and a half years ago and what I wrote was the pure version of it. I didn't want to change even a letter of it because of the respect I have for that me...
Beril