Who are you?!

Who are you
My eyes were filled with tears; ready to burst out in split seconds..
I looked at my fooster parents;
Looked at them all with so much pains; so much pain in my heart..
I wished I could remove the veils off their eyes; so the eyes of their understanding might be enlightened..
Who are you; I was asked
Absolute silence emerged
I look at them again and just then I promised myself..
I must do this; for my family, for my God and for myself..
Slowly l gained back my boldness, my composure, and myself most especially and thus I began..

I am no longer that girl who was ruled by fear; who didn't and couldn't do most things because of fear, for I have realized that it of no use to fear he who can take life but cannot make
I am no longer that girl who couldn't make choices,for fear of making the wrong decisions, that girl who had to depend on mummy and daddy to choose for her..
I have a mind of my own now; i have learnt to be independent at some point and I know every choice and decision I make is a risk which am ready to bear..
I am no longer that child with a dogmatic mind, who had to take and accept things just the way they came, without finding out why and how..
I had to find myself, so I do not get fooled;
Only God's word nd his peace could ever help me out with that..
I am no longer that person with the title Christian; that child that hated to be restricted by the rules and doctrines of Christianity and had to bear the name because mom and dad were Christians..
I am a christian because I love Christ and his ways are worth following so, I want and I am determined to live like christ
I am no longer that girl who believed that the real essence of life lies in having massive beautiful clothes, popularity and thousands of friends..
I have learnt that you could have all these things and you are still worth nothing..
Life is far more than that..
I am no longer that child that was ruled by infatuation and lusts; that child who's emotion you could easily toy with..
I have learnt to love and to love real good and if you toy with my heart because you know I love you, I pity what you will become after that..
For I love because Christ loved first and told me to love..
I am not where I supposed or wish to be but I am no longer where I used to be..
I am only certain of my future because I know the one who holds my future; holds it well!