beelzael rebloggedbeelshops (62)in Actifit • 13 hours agowon't move tomorrow. My Actifit Diary: May 5 2026Everything hurts. Especially my legs. What was I thinking? Clock sits at 16,500 steps, and on top of that I decided to go to the gym and do leg training. After doing Tang Soo Do…beelzael (74)in Photography Lovers • 2 days agoFavorites from the last week of March.Time ticks by. Slowly. Without any news, just frustrating waiting periods. Tick Tack. Another day passed. Sun up, work work eat work work, sun down. Reading to Lily without…beelzael rebloggedbeelshops (62)in Actifit • 4 days agoBaby steps backwards. My Actifit Diary: May 1 2026Is it Fridays that it hits differently? Or just random? I remember being in the same mood last Friday. Ready to cry at every minute. To punch walls. Diminish people. Give into my…beelzael rebloggedbeelshops (62)in Actifit • 3 days agoBack in paradise. My Actifit Diary: May 2 2026It was hard to get into gear. A long night, short sleep, and overall exhaustion. But the prospect of the day was excellent – going to my favorite place in the Intag valley with…beelzael (74)in Weekend Experiences • 2 days agoBetter than me. “Arrogant people are just very insecure, using their arrogance as a shield to pretend that they’re not.” My father’s words. I heard that so many times. He was always quite the…beelzael (74)in Weekend Experiences • 3 days agoThey would've changed the world.I forgot to clip my toe nails. Which generally isn't a problem, they're well guarded inside socks (I bough new ones, so most don't even have holes), inside sneakers or shoes or…beelzael (74)in Reflections • 5 days agoHow do you apologize?I have a buddy. I think. He's more of a friend's friend. Actually he's my friend's sponsor, helping him to stay sober and going through the steps and all that. My friend is in a…beelzael rebloggedbeelshops (62)in Actifit • 6 days agoLet the Ki flow. My Actifit Diary: April 29 2026Today I felt it again. Finally. After so many years. I was hesitant about the martial arts training at first, I didn’t quite connect with the teacher, he was talking a little too…beelzael (74)in Photography Lovers • 8 days agoFavorites from last week.I've done quite a bit of walking last week, and there are always moments that make me stop and take a closer look. A lot of times, there's now way to capture the real moment.…beelzael (74)in Weekend Experiences • 9 days agoPush for power.I was walking around, digesting, when I met this gate. Rusty. With an ark stained through rain and time. One side was a sturdy concrete brick wall, the other one the ancient clay…beelzael (74)in Weekend Experiences • 11 days agoChanging tides.We went to a different place yesterday to do the jamsession. It was the last one with Stephen, who had been coming to the sessions with a lot of enthusiasm since November. He…beelzael (74)in Photography Lovers • 12 days agoAm I living Half-Life?Waking up this morning was particularly strange. I hadn't slept very well - the situation with my daughter is starting to wear on me - and also had a long day in front of me…beelzael (74)in Reflections • 13 days agoA party crashing.Last weekend, on a Saturday, I accompanied Ellie and Kami to a party. Ellie and I had found a huge amount of red flags regarding that party, and it would be the first party at…beelzael rebloggedbeelshops (62)in Actifit • 13 days agoQuito and back. My Actifit Diary: April 22 2026Whenever I set an early alarm, I wake up 20 times in the hour before it. Just not to miss it. Same today. Alarm set at 4.15am, and since 3am I started waking up around every 5…beelzael rebloggedbeelshops (62)in Actifit • 14 days agoMy Actifit Diary: April 21 2026Time keeps ticking on. Slowly now. I try to speed it up, but it doesn’t work. There’s nothing left I can do. Just wait. And wait. I filed all the paperwork. The court has 10 days…beelzael (74)in PRAETORIA • 15 days agoWhat's land worth now?Calculating the yearly ROI based on todays values.beelzael (74)in Weekend Experiences • 16 days agoReady to be hurt.I've been mugged at gun point. And at blade point. Nothing serious, I got used to walking around without anything of personal value. Without anything I'd fight for. The first…beelzael (74)in Weekend Experiences • 18 days agoWhat's one more?Ellie and I are going to do a stake out tonight. Her daughter, who I still have to find a pseudonym for, is going to her first party. She doesn't have any experience in parties…beelzael (74)in Reflections • 19 days agoToo close to home.I finished a book. No, not C.S. Lewis’ Abolition of Man, I finished that a while ago, after along struggle. This time, it was “The Road” by Cormac McCarthy, recommended to me by…beelzael (74)in Photography Lovers • 19 days agoThey're just here.Friends I mean. Sometimes it's all that's needed, that they're here for me. Sunday we went to a local brewery. Rather spontaneously. Things came together and there we were, with…