To live without a God, some god, or some type of a moral box is an absolute freedom.
I felt that way for a while, when I denied God and decided I could get a lot further in life if I shed that old moral code I was raised with... until I started walking down the path and discovered nothing but misery, pointlessness, sadness, anger and dissatisfaction. It wasn't freedom, but slavery. It wasn't joy, but despair. When I turned away from the depravity I was headed for, my life changed for good.
Since repenting of the atheistic moral relativism and turning towards the statues of the LORD, accepting Yeshua as savior and Messiah, my life has been exceedingly blessed - including a good wife, many children and a moral compass where I can decern right from wrong and have a foundation for my life.
I would encourage anyone bound up in pride and sin to rediscover what every human knows in the womb - that there is a creator God and He is good and He desires good for us. It takes humility to remember this and about-face from the seductions of the world, but in the end it is absolutely worth it. Blessing or cursing, life or death, salvation or condemnation. It's not a difficult choice.
!BBH
That was so familiar with my own experience. Sometimes I wonder to those who follow this absolute freedom truly has joy if they've asked deep down enough. But maybe it works for some of them, you know.
It takes humility to get to know all this but so far, it has done me good and I hear nothing but I look happier. Even for me, I feel at peace,no longer in constant turmoil and have something to hope and live for.
Thank you so much for sharing the story. It's something that we need to read and learn from.