That was so familiar with my own experience. Sometimes I wonder to those who follow this absolute freedom truly has joy if they've asked deep down enough. But maybe it works for some of them, you know.
It takes humility to get to know all this but so far, it has done me good and I hear nothing but I look happier. Even for me, I feel at peace,no longer in constant turmoil and have something to hope and live for.
Thank you so much for sharing the story. It's something that we need to read and learn from.