You are telling me that it's in the same category as 'what I should have had for breakfast'?
:D :D
If you can fantasize about your reflection in the mirror and know that you are trying hard as you can as often as you can, then that's enough.
The challenge for me is, that when I look in the mirror and reflect, there is always something else I could have done. Perhaps it is an eternal problem. Perhaps it will be a process where things start to click again, but at the moment I feel a bit like a lego block, trying to work as a cog in a gearbox.