You are so brave to share all of this. Thank you.
I recently did a form of therapy called Accelerated Resolution Therapy. It's very different from talk therapy, and uses eye movement to change the emotional association with imagery from traumatic experiences. I did it to work with the trauma I experienced in an abusive relationship. The session was intense, but sooo effective. I've been really amazed by the relief I've felt since. It's only been about five days but I feel more confident and at ease doing simple things that before I hadn't realized how much anxiety I was feeling around them. I think my trauma had been so ingrained that it was subtly infused into my daily activities.
I wonder if it might be something you could try, in addition to your talk therapy? If there are resources like that where you are. If it helps you like it helped me, I think it could really lighten the load for you.
Here's a link explaining what ART is. There's also [EMDR}(https://www.emdria.org/about-emdr-therapy/), which I think was the original form of treatment, but I haven't experienced that one myself.
Even if my suggestions aren't what you're looking for, I hope you find a way to get faster relief. You deserve to feel safe, @priyanarc. ❤️
(Editing comment to add the freewrite post I made about my experience) just to share a little about how it went.
Before replying I read your post because I was curious to find some similarities and I am glad I read your post. My thoughts are also similar and my feelings are so intense now. My doctor told me that trauma therapy will start and also psycho therapy will go on, it's like side by side. I have some past history, I had schizophrenia and also I was diagnosed with advanced psychotherapy. But the therapy you have taken seems very effective and I can discuss this with my doctor as well. I am going to check the link you have shared and will educate myself about the treatment you have got.
I know how it feels to deal with a lot, it feels like you are kind of stuck in another world and it's not easy to come back to real life without therapy.
I am glad you are doing well now...Thank you...
❤️❤️❤️❤️! Maybe it's already in the plans for your trauma therapy. Or maybe something even more effective that we haven't heard about...
Ya I will wait for the upcoming therapies, you are right, maybe it is included...