An understandable reaction, but there's absolutely nothing to rationalize or defend, I'm not here to attack or judge, just purely curious
It’s not really that compulsion to rationalize/defend to you, but either to myself or just in general… an expression of that constant battle within myself that gets reactivated whenever I think about it. Like thinking out loud on the matter in general.
The rest of that… you really do have a way with words sometimes… 💫