Autocracy or democracy are a few things I don't really appreciate much. Maybe it's the rebel in me that doesn't recognize them but I don't consider myself rebel. Perhaps it's just how things usually go about their own ways that I too leave them be just as they are. In a warped sense of way I somehow don't mind about mutual exploitation but feeding off and turning into a leech is something I don't prefer. Everyone wants to be rewarded whether they deem themselves deserving or not.
Sam & Dean... suicide is a touchy subject to me although neither I nor anyone close to me has ever attempted to do that... maybe the emptiness inside was unbearable and pain was the only way one could feel something... In a way I would welcome any feeling good, bad or downright horrible but a hole inside is something I'd dread. Minhaj, over the past few months this is something I have been experiencing. People that I have lost touch with or out of contact have started to flood my social media. I don't even remember some of them and I ask "who are you?" Either they make themselves known or they choose to avoid, I go back my own way. মামা শখের তোলা ষোল আনা। there's a difference between শখ and আকাঙ্ক্ষা... and often they get mixed up and our minds can't identify which is same. Almost as same as want and need. There's no harm having hobbies or desires that fuels our inner selves but there's also limit to it. I can enjoy music whenever I want but going out on a shopping spree and buy everything on sight isn't something I would consider a hobby.