Love this! When it comes to religion it gets even trickier because there are many customs or norms that may or may not even be beneficial to your life. In fact some may even harm you. We are the same in that we both question things and want to not be put in boxes.
As far as God and free will well I would love to dig into that. Care to discuss it on discord? I'm there @HumanEarl if so. Love your thoughts and thanks for even understanding.
I would love to discuss free will with you. I'm still trying to get the hang of discord. Hopefully, I will have some time in the near future.