lol @mrwang it is all part of my 50 shades bud and it is really hard to explain how it all comes together in this case there was allot I did before marriage until I met the one person who I can honestly say loved me first, now I explore all this within my marriage, I do have a deep religious side and beliefs but believe it or not it strongly supports my S&M lifestyle :)
Thank you for your opinion on the tag my friend and for the vote.