I know this mind sound dumb. If you try exploring spiritual aspects of life, It might just be your salvation. Not just because your thoughts/mind is bothering you. But because people who go thru shit like you have gone thru have a certain amount of dissolution with social aspects of life. Now in a spiritual context that's fantastic !! It's like 50% of the work has already been done. Now the person is ready to take off.
In most cases the "normal" person spends most of his effort in spirituality trying to unlearn things. But people who have seen suffering in areas of life such as military, law enforcement and healthcare etc have largely unlearnt it by watching all the things that go on in the world. That's why social situations and relationships give them so much trouble because they cannot just accept things just as they are. They know it's all nonsense.
So in your suffering there might the seeds and potential for extremely rapid spiritual growth since a lot of the work is probably already done !! I would urge you to explore it. Here is a very old post my partner had once put out on yoga. You might find it interesting :) Yoga
Thanks. My wife and I have been doing a lot of inner type of spirituality stuff, like reflection and meditation. We aren't religious people in any way, nor do we have any desire to be, but meditation and nature is what has been helping us.