It must be very difficult to go through the circumstances you have told us about. I have also experienced difficult times in terms of health, and feeling your body fading away is sad. Having a new opportunity to play your cards is a real reason to be thankful, especially when you have so many goals that help build a better world. Even if it is only in a small part of the world, it is a very valuable and altruistic act. My best wishes for your full recovery =)