Wow I honestly feel for you. I've had somewhat different but comparable experiences. And yeah, it's the worst when you see your loved ones, for whom you would do anything, suffer or hurt.
I don't know the situation and can't offer any concrete advice. What I can recommend is that you continue to work on yourself. Everything happens for a reason, every experience is there to bring light to a part of us that needs healing. It might be buried deep in our subconscious mind so it's almost impossible to realize it through analytical thinking. Instead, techniques like EFT or even better, psych-k might help. Parasympathetic breathing exercises, Ho'oponopono or reading some good spiritual books helped me over the years as well. It's tough when there are things seemingly out of our control - we can either try and change them or change our perception of them.
I'm sure you will gain clarity over the situation and how to move forward, and that things will take a turn for the better. Praying that you stay strong and positive. 🙏
Hello Alcibiades,
Thank you for your thoughtful comment. Although it saddens me a little that you've had to endure similar situations, I'm sure you're stronger because of how you chose to do so. I appreciate you taking the time to suggest a few tools to help me move forward, which is really the only option I have. Some of them I'm familiar with, others not so much, and I'll look into them.
I agree with you, and I'm working towards adjusting my perceptions of the things I can't control into more favourable ones. For myself, because I need it to stay strong and keep going.
Thank you so much for your trust and your wishes.
Be well and see you around!