I also think the experiences we have in life will help steer our way of thinking and our beliefs. My own story is a pretty hard one to tell and I started out with one bad thing happening after another, From a young girl to a grown woman, and for a long time I felt like I was living in hell and thought that maybe I had been a really bad person in another life (possibly) to deserve the things that were happening because I couldn't understand what I did to deserve it.
I don't know what I believe and I tell people, and often times I'm judged for it, but they haven't walked a day in my shoes... that if there is a heaven or hell... and the day comes that I meet my maker, I have questions and I have things to say. And then he can do what he will.
Some people are blessed, some people are not. Do I think that if I prayed more maybe things would have been different? No. I prayed and prayed as a child and help never came. It wasn't until I was old enough to take care of myself that I got myself out of the situation I was in.
This was an awesome thought provoking post @abhaya504... I'm really not a bitter person despite everything and you will always see a smile on my face and will always be in good spirits with the occasional days that you just won't hear from me, I try to do good and be good not for fear of going to hell but because I think it's just who I am ... I've suffered and know what it's like and have decided to not let that define who I am.
Oh geez, I'm so sorry this got so long lol... it's definitely a subject I could probably write a book about.
Wow @monchhichi23! Thank you for sharing your story with us! Your brief description of your past reminds me very much of the story of Job in the Christian Bible. Job was a good man, and the Devil made a wager with God that he could make Job curse the Lord he loved.
The Devil threw horrible circumstance after horrible circumstance at Job, but Job never lost his love for God.
Perhaps you weren't being punished at all. Perhaps in your previous existence you were in ideal circumstances and weren't given the opportunity to learn from pain—one of the greatest teachers and motivators for a human being. This feels especially true since it happened earlier in your life which gave you the opportunity to transcend Hell here on Earth and find your way to a Heavenly state of mind while you are still in your body.
Congratulations! That is an amazing accomplishment! Maintaining a positive mental attitude even when the going is rough is one of the most difficult skills one can master.
I'm sure you're keenly aware of the many lessons your early life struggles taught you. They litterally formed you into the bright being you are today!
So lovely! 😍