Hi! @dreemsteem
Thank you for your good will. I, happily, can say that this part of my life is gone but I did start a new part of it with Multiple Sclerosis about a year ago.
I don't know I entered that emptiness again or this is a new 'full of lights' place, but I know that each of it has its hard sides. Some have pointy sides some have pillows.
I hope I am in that 'pillow' side! LOL