That’s what I thought when I finally set my watch right and had Garmin Connect installed and everything was working somewhat fine. So, I installed Actifit. I mean, I do the workout anyway, and the steps are usually not a problem at all, what would the harm be? None. Just some fun.
That turned into a diary now. I need to write. I need to put at least some of my thoughts in writing every day, if not, they dissipate eventually and forever. I need to process what happened, even if it’s through mundane words, nothing super smart. I noticed that in the recent weeks, when the pressure coming from Lily’s mom through constant attacks and threats was almost unbearable. Almost.
I didn’t write at that time. I sunk myself into work. I tried to maintain my energy with me, not to misspend it on the thousand of thoughts provoked by years of experience, by the shattering of the wonderful stability that I had built for Lily and I, by the seeing my girl trying to deal with a situation that her age is not meant to deal with and me being constantly forced away from her and not able to support her in that emotional path as much as I would like to.
I spent that energy on accepting the crisis and maintaining my awareness on my reactions and patterns, analyzing them, trying not to fall down back into the hole too much. I somewhat succeeded, and I’m honestly quite proud of the progress that I’ve made, and how I was able to deal with everything.
Things have calmed down now. I can’t say I won, but a “I won’t fight you anymore over when she is with whom.” kind of does feel that way.
That was around 1 week after starting to do daily reports in @actifit, with my “spam” account @beelshops. I don’t want to use this one because I’d like to keep the the apps out of my main account. Beelshops was originally created for that purpose, to use for Distriator purchases. So it would fit Actifti reports, too. And with that, a little less thoughtful form of writing that I don't spend hours of thinking and preparing on like most of my posts here. Most. Not all.
And what I noticed – it does motivate to get the 10k steps, too. I usually surpass them, but there are days that I’m around 8k and think “Well, I could go for a short walk.” And then I do that. And guess what happens when I walk? I think. I breathe. I recalibrate. I look around. I see the mountains, the plants, the trees, the murals.
It’s not that straight forward work type of walking. It’s daundering around this town that I love so much but never see for real when I run around. It’s processing the day and all that happened.
It’s a real break. Coming from Actifit. Ironic, isn’t it? It’s not like hitting the gym, which I enjoy a lot, too. That has become a routine already, a necessity. This is leisure, and I need more leisure in my life to deal with everything.
And it has gotten a lot better. Everything. I’m calmer. I’m more patient. I’m making better decisions.
Sure, it’s not just the app. It’s a lot of me, climbing out of my hole. But that routine of getting my steps done, walking a little more for pleasure, writing my day down in the evening before my eyes fall down – that’s not nothing.
And that’s Hive. There are so many little apps in development that are full of bugs and need patience and time to learn, but can improve quality of life. Waiting to be found by those who will enjoy them.
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For me, walking is better than the gym. Walking is freedom; sometimes I leave the house without knowing where I'll be walking. And the air is always different; it's nice to breathe the frosty air of winter and the air of blossoming spring, to see and hear life all around.
After a walk, I feel rested and not at all nervous; I enjoy doing something, reading something, or watching a video over dinner.
Walking mindfully is very underrated, as I'm experiencing these days. It helps so much on so many fronts. I really enjoy it a lot, too.
(Thanks for yet another tip!)
I like Actifit and haven't even used it. I just like that it keeps people motivated and I quite like it when people do a short post with something interesting about their run that doesn't take long to read!
Yeah, though some are a little too short for my taste. I always try to find those who put in at least some effort, writing at least a couple of paragraphs, with more than one picture.
But there is definitely potential in that whole actifit idea.
You make me think: perhaps I shall re-install Actfit myself.
Perhaps it gives me an extra push to walk daily walks. Something I like to pick up again. Something I seem to execute for a few weeks until I start to decrease the number of days for such activity. And it is just that, a form of meditation, a chance for thought processes, but also a way to go through my big lists of podcasts, or time for discovering new music. Though the Health app on my phone helps to push me when I dont forget to open it, Actifit with the possibiloty to share this on HIVE, may give an extra boost.
Thanks for your post, your story and with that an extra trigger for us - I - to consider something similar.
I'm glad that my post has that effect! Let me know if you decide to do it. Adding the social part of posting on hive and commenting on other peoples' activities is a good motivator. There are all those little gimmicks and stuff that I don't really understand, and there are quite a few bugs, but still.
Cool, will let you know when I get there.
The bugs I see in many apps created in/for the decentralised world of blockchains bugs me big time.
Was about to write a post about my 4 months of experience with Fountain, a decentralised Nostr frontend for podcasts. Same Same with that thing; So much it pushed me to use Spotify again.
It is good you are able to find calmness and relaxation in your walks. Haven't been following you long at all. So I not sure what you are going through, but can read between the lines. It can be stressful I am sure. So continue to take time for yourself when you can. If you can't, make the time.
Ready for the winter to end and rain to subside here. I am biting at the bit to get out and stroll. Take in my neighborhood and snap some photos.
The good thing about living in Ecuador is that I don't have all that winter stuff anymore. Used to bum me out way too much back in Germany. Our Christmas visit back with the family was incredible though - but it was very unusual for our region. Almost no rain, very bright days (for the time the sun was out), and the most beautiful sunrises and -sets.
The thing going on is a constant fight for the well being of my 7yo daughter. Her mom is incredibly unstable on all accounts and has been dragging Lily around Latin America for the most of her live. The last 1,5 years Lily lived with me, thriving with the stability of a constant home. Now the mom decided to move into town (which she hates), making very clear that she wants to take Lily away again, causing a lot of emotional instability for us, too. Which I'm dealing with these days. Hence all those treatise about Stoicism and trying to be the better person. It all derives from trying to be the best example possible for my daughter.
I kind of figured it was something along those lines. It is terrible your daughter has to experience that. And you too. Yes, just keep trying to be that better person and the best example for your daughter you can be.
It has worked out so far. Lily and I have a great connection, and she loves either of us. The more she grows, she more she understands, and the more she will be able to make decisions.
Thank you for the tip!
So glad you have a great connection. That is so important. Best wishes.
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