Healing takes time. It also takes a lot of feckin patience.
I sit here, here as in outside, next to my truck, on our fold out couch, which for the summer, is permanently in the bed/food out position. I look out onto the mountains, where everything makes sense.
Mosquitoes buzz around me, begining to anoy me, but also to remind me that I chose to live here. To step into their territory, where they have most likely always existed.
How can I claim to have it all, if I'm not experiencing it all. All, as in the environment that I live in. Surrendering myself to the weather that rolls in, each day. Really feeling the 41 degree celsius heat, taking myself to the extreme.
Like jumping into the deep end, to reach the cold, crystal clear water below. It's made me more resilient, whilst also softening me on the inside.
Giving myself the time I need to heal, has been one of my bigger struggles in life. I've been delving deep, unearthing emotions that have been kept in the dark for too long. I have no interest in reliving my past, instead I want to just let it go. Set it free.
I've had two sessions with a local healer. She has been helping me, to understand what has been holding me back. Which of course is myself.
She was able to identify when my first moment of trauma happened, which was when I was in my mother's womb. I've already written about that. In response to that trauma, I created a way of protecting myself, which I put into place, whenever I felt threatened. On be knows to myself, that mode of protection, has also worked to prevent positive things from helping as well.
The healer put it like this, most things that I feel penetrate my aura, I subconsciously, see them as being an act of violence against me. It took me a while to digest that, because I feel myself to be very fortunate. But I also know that I could do better.
I spend over 2 hours with her and when I came back, I was wiped out. I had to lie down, which was easy to surround to, seeing as it was a super hot day. I mulled it over in my head and then I had a moment of even deeper awareness.
Whilst I was in my mother's womb, I felt things more on an energetic level and when she felt threatened, that is what I reacted to. Alongside the rush of hormones that would have been passed onto me.
I feel like these last few months so much has been coming up. In the last few days , I have been having some stomach issues, a detox of sorts. Releasing, some of my pain, some of my insecurities in a more physical way. And believe me, I have had a lot of insecurities.
So whilst I've not been active on here, believe me when I say, that I have been very active in the outside world. Pun intended.
I am going through something similar: delving into past traumas and repressed feelings, aiming to let go of them, instead of storing them in my body.
Big big hug, amiga
we can do it!
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I think I was responding to your post from a few days ago, when you were writing this.yes we are on the same path and we are doing it, my friend.
Much love Vincent xxx
Synchronicity ;^)
xxx
Similar times for me too. Delving into the past, trying to make peace with it. I have to. Anxiety keeps me hostage and I need to release more and more, so I can be more at peace. In my tapping sessions I also get all the way back to the womb. Probably where it all starts for most of us.
Take a good care of yourself 💙
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Thank you @fantagira, yes I think a lot of us are been given this opportunity to ley go. Wishing you all the best xxx
You sound Irish.
I'm a holistic doctor and able to beat Western Medicine every time. I've just cured PTSD, which is simply a trauma. I just want to mention the herb I used which was effective and cured me entirely. "Linshui" which is a non psychoactive mushroom or fungus. 50% reduction in 1 day. Cured in 2 months in combination with sports. I was in year 3 of PTSD. Now it's all gone and feel no pain. Goodluck.
Inventer of The New Celt-Saxon Medical Methodology.
Thank you, yes I'm from Ireland.
I'm a big fan of mushrooms, they have amazing medicinal values xx
Lol. Its non pschodelic. :)
Yes I know. I take Reishi most mornings in my smoothie. I have also found both Chaga and Turkey tail very helpful. Lions Mane is another one I have researched as well. When I said medicinal that's what I mean. Mycelium running is one of my favourite books. Mushrooms really can heal the world and all of us on it xxxx
Nice one! I say no more. I've been reading about Lyons mane and dying to try it. But the Linshui was enough. I combined this with sports, Himalayan rocksalt, Nori Sea Algea (cant get Irish moss or Bladderwrack here) and sometimes RSO. This combined with Sebi methodologies.
These i found to be very effective. Im going to cure it 100%, I dont care what the liars (Western Rockefeller Medicine) say. :D
Im also Irish and British, now developing The New Celt Saxon Medical Methodology.
I understand how emotionally drained you could feel after such a gruelling session. I'm certainly glad you're getting to understand yourself and be free. You can certainly do it and be free in due time. All my love to you dearest @trucklife-family 💜
Thank you @jhymi, love to you too xxxx
It takes courage to go there, to face what we store in the body. But doing so is also so rewarding, we learn and understand more about ourselves and when we manage to release stuff, wow, that can be so powerful and freeing. I'm glad to hear that you took it easy after your session.
Sending you a big hug from Sweden 🤗
Thank you lovely. I'm still in the process of it, it can be intense but yes it's bringing a lot of awareness xxxx