Cheers lass!
That was the thing that got me too. He couldn't say anything legible, like the words coming out of his brain were getting scrambled by the time they got to his voice box but he managed to say that and it made you think what kind of state is he in that he can force that out because as you say, they don't want to go on like that.
I was constantly ashamed of how I felt. I tried to convince my mum that it would be better if we let him go and I will never forget the look of hurt and betrayal on her face because she thought he would come back from it, maybe not quite the same but somehow and he never even came near. I think that is what hastened her passing in the end, his demise and her never truly being able to say goodbye to the man she loved.
I remember the first time someone who had been through it said to me, its an awful feeling when you realise you are an orphan now and I just bawled my eyes out. It is such a truly weird thing.
i better stop writing before I start bawling my eyes out again!!!
I'm almost afraid to reply to this, for fear I'll go off the deep end like I did a few days ago. Suffice to say @meesterboom, my face is now a bit wet, especially after reading @dswigle's replies after barely recovering from reading your post. Perfect choice for a toast, and I'm sending hugs as well...
That dswigly is an eloquent one and no mistake. I think she put it far better than I. Thank you :O)
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