Crawling out of limbo

There are two weeks left before my visa expires and I haven’t submitted the documents yet. I got everything ready on my end but the small company that was nice enough to sponsor me is going out of their way to help and wasn’t prepared for this so they need to get some documents together on their end. I can’t complain, they have no reason to help me other than that they know I do good work and want me to stay in Japan, but this is way more responsibility than I want to put on them. It’s the only way to stay here though, so all I can do is wait.

Hopefully my application gets submitted this week and doesn’t have any problems. If there are any problems whatsoever, I only have a week to fix them. It’s cutting it really freakishly close.

But I’m already used to these close calls. This is what’s happened every single year since I came back. I hired a consultant to fix this and see if I could get a 3 year visa but he said next year at the earliest and only if I can make more money and stick with the same sponsor.

I could complain but I don’t even see the point anymore. It is what it is.

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It is my nature to prepare for all possible outcomes so I’m wondering what i will do if the visa doesn’t go through. Should I get married to my partner to stay in Japan once she is working? Should I try to relocate to Thailand and bring her over once I’m ready? Should I head back to America and live with my family for a while? Should I try to travel despite the fact that I’m still fixing my back issues and try to fix them as I go?

None of these are likely as I feel pretty confident that I will get the visa but I know how it hurts to be put in those situations without some kind of emotional or mental preparation so I need to consider it.

The idea of traveling excites me but I feel very strongly that it’s not quite time yet. Since my partner started working, I’m set up to have a much easier time in Japan with two salaries in one household for the first time since we met 8 years ago. We have basically gone back and forth working and spent 2 years long distance, paying for two apartments.

With two salaries I will be free to travel as soon as my back is feeling better and go join some fun events to connect with people since everything in Japan costs money.

I realized that the only things I dislike about living in Japan could be improved upon if I have more energy to put towards making things happen, it’s all due to not having enough energy. I have so much energy inside but it doesn’t translate well when my body is lagging behind.

Once my condition is a little more stable I plan to initiate conversation with a lot more strangers. I want to start a kind of weekly art jam. I want to podcast regularly. I want to go to music festivals and see if I can start some projects with artists I like here. I want to see if I can host some concerts or small festivals myself. I will write a lot more music and finish my novels and go out into the world to share my projects with more people who I think will appreciate them.

My mind and my heart is ready. My body is starting to catch up. I am healing and I am ready.

One thing is certain, I will never take my body for granted again. I will make use of all the energy I have to create and share. I won’t waste any opportunities ever again. I will face my fears.

If I am not meant to do all these things than life can strike me down now. But I’ve come this far and there’s no way I could have done that if I wasn’t meant for greater things. All of my problems have sculpted me into exactly who I need to be in order to live out my dreams. And so I intend to.

I have already climbed my way out of hell. Now I intend to build heaven with my own hands.

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I like the fact that you've thought of the worst case scenario and brought up possible solution.

The fact remains, you can't rush your sponsors and as such you will have to wait.

I do have a strong feeling that your sponsors will come through. I don't know them but I'm confident about them😅

I always do that, it's how I got over anxiety. Things are easier to deal with once you aren't scared of messing up.

Thanks! I know he will come through. And I hope the immigration office will come through too

I always do that, it's how I got over anxiety. Things are easier to deal with once you aren't scared of messing up.

That's very true. If one isn't prepared ahead of time, tension and anxiety set in.

Thanks! I know he will come through. And I hope the immigration office will come through too

Yes they will✨

Wow, that's heavy. Wish you a steady recovery!
Also hope you get to do all the things you want and like and good luck with the visa.

Thank you 🙏 I am working towards it!

I also do that. Where I come up with the worst case scenario and then proceed with the best line of action. I also agree with @wongi. I have a feeling they'd come through.

I am really a kid in most ways but I feel more adult than most people thanks to this way of approaching things. You must be super adult! 😆

Thanks @deraaa 😊

Not that I've made it a point to always think of every possible outcome, but I'm like this most of the time too. I feel like I need to prepare for anything always, so I make backups and backup backups.

I hope everything works out fine and you're able to travel as much as you like. I love traveling, and if circumstances were different, I'd travel a lot. For now, it's only wishful thinking. Might be different in the future. I hope so.

I was caught by surprise when I saw back issues. I hope it gets better real soon, man. Anyways, what type of back issues do you have?

It's kind of complicated but I can say this....if you have bad posture, don't exercise or stretch carry a heavy backpack everywhere and ignore muscle pains and tightness...it doesn't end well 😆 and doctors don't have answers for everything. So I learned some hardcore massage techniques and do it on myself 🔥

Things should be alright!

Ah this is the fix your posture speech I needed to hear. Fixing posture requires a lot of mindfulness and effort. My posture issues developed from the heavy backpack I used to carry to school everyday. I had to kind of bend myself forwards in order to be able to balance the load on my back. And I did it for close to 10 years! The effects are devastating right now as I can’t travel long journeys in peace.

What would you recommend for better fixing posture? I’ve seen a lot of stuff on TikTok and YouTube but they never seem to do the job for me.

I think it’s hard without relaxing the muscle. I used first a tennis ball, now a lacrosse ball and sometimes a golf ball or similar sized crystal on the bed or against a wall (wall doesn’t work with golf ball or crystal)to massage my shoulders and back muscles, and my hands to massage my neck and chest. Also try some stretch and strength exercises for internal and external rotation of the shoulders. It’s hard to know exactly what would help best but these are the practices that I find are pretty universally awesome.

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Beautiful message
and, as per usual, a lot that I can relate to.

Whatever will happen, you will be ready for it my friend :<)

I'm always for spending some time with family when you can but I guess that depends entirely on how well you get along with family xD

Hopefully stuff works out easily (even if it is cutting it a bit fine for everyone's taste by the sounds of things x_x) so you don't have to worry about having a backup plan, but on the bright side at least you have multiple ideas for backup plans which is better than having no backup plan at all :D

I had two reasons for not hanging out with my family. Now I have one. The old reason was that they had issues with most of my thoughts and opinions. Now they seem to have become more accepting but they are still a $1000 usd+ ticket and 14 hours away 😆

At least the remaining reason is a good one XD

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One thing to keep in mind is that sadly we will almost always take advantage of our bodies again despite injuries or situations that teach us a lesson. It’s unfortunate but sadly part of the human condition I think lol. I will amid though that you’re likely not going to hurt your back again which is good! As long as you keep your back in good shape most of the other things should work out!

Good luck on the visa business, I hope it gets renewed quickly but it’s also equally important to plan for the other situations as you’ve said. That also should hopefully mean you don’t get separated from your partner too since that’s always tough! I’m sure it will work out and you’ll be able to get to those things you’re wanting to do which is good!